I have found myself to be in a position where I am struggling to regain my faith in God. For a long time I have battled with this, but most of the time I have found that I was able to regain my faith after thinking deeply about whatever topic bothered me (the biggest issue I tended to face was that I had to reconcile the way in which the universe works and the way in which the Bible describes it). I have now found that I no longer battle with these issues. I have managed to find a way to describe the universe that seems to, for me, prove the existence of a God.
However I am finding now that I am battling with the Bible and moral issues regarding it. I understand that, truthfully, the Bible was written thousands of years ago in a language vastly different to that which we currently speak. Most of the time this helps me a lot. I cannot completely use this reasoning for all verses that disturb me, though.
I'm just confused as to how homosexuality can be a sin when it is not a choice. I know that regardless of it being a sin, a homosexual person can still obviously be saved. I've also heard some interpretations claim that the homosexuality in the Bible is referring more to homosexual lust (which was somewhat common in the ancient era in certain cultures) than genuine same-sex love. I still find it to be a confusing issue though.
I find the Bible to be generally confusing to read to be honest. I struggle to generally understand the full message of the Bible. I cannot personally determine if it is the book written by a Creator with limitless love, who is essentially the embodiment of the most powerful emotion, or a book that's meant to demonstrate the wrath of this God. I'm confused about this because I cannot personally reconcile the ideas of love and wrath. I understand that there is a major difference between justified anger and personally motivated anger (anger caused by selfish motives, generally). However, I struggle to understand generally what the justification for God's wrath is, and that is in part due to my lack of understanding of the true meaning of sin.
Overall I find myself in a conflicted position where I understand that based on what I know; there is a God. I feel as though the idea of a meaningless, purposefulness, Godless universe is too depressing to accept, and for me not necessary to accept because in my mind I understand that there is a God. My issue is that I can't really prove to myself that it is Yahweh. I am conflicted because I cannot live without a purposeful universe, and more importantly a universe without an afterlife, as I have lost Christian family members, and I would obviously much prefer to believe that they are living on and that one day we'll reunite. I have witnessed what I believe were great works of God. I've experienced it. Yet I still find myself to be conflicted. This generally has troubled me.
I apologise if this is not relevant to the subreddit or if this message appears incoherent. I've been struggling to put my thoughts together.
Submitted February 20, 2017 at 01:52PM by Unknown
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