So I still believe in Christ. But I've been living away from home for 2.5 years now and haven't been to church that often anymore.
During this time I've got to think over church and culture and have begun to dislike a lot of things.
First is Christians that go, proclaim to be but don't give or help outside the church.
The church taking tithes but not really seeing it used on anything other than "growing the church" (getting more people in the the building) and renovating and expanding the building. Feels like a number game.
Modern worship music, I can't stand listening to it, so boring and everything is typical and predicable. Worship is the least favorite part for me in a church service, because of the music and cheesy shouting and "concert-ness" of it all.
Christian friends posting typical cheesy things. Selfies with "God is my everything" quotes and photos of their bibles and other christian stuff.
Also things like "This is Gods plan", "he will provide this for me" and "God told me this", things like this I'm critical of too. Feeling like God doesn't owe us anything and a lot of things happen just because... they happen, and your consciousness will tell you things because you've been focusing on a text for so long it's just your brain subconsciously repeating patterns it's been taught whether it's biblical teachings or worldly ones.
I feel like I shouldn't care and maybe I'm just bitter, but I don't really feel like returning back to my home church I've been in most my teen and young adult life.
It feels hard to be around the Christians I know without rolling my eyes now. But like I've already said, I can't tell if I'm bitter or I need to move on and find like minded people. It's hard to stay friends with those you don't share the same church with.
/Rant. Just thoughts I've lately and needed to write out.
Submitted February 22, 2017 at 02:34PM by Unknown
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