Over Christmas I was alone, and decided to make the most of my free time by catching up on tv series I would never normally watch with the family.
This included a whole season of The walking dead, followed by a particularly violent episode of 'Sons of Anarchy.'
At around 1900hrs, I developed an absolute dread, a physical unwellness that I knew didn't have a physical cause, but a mental/psychological one.
I can't explain how, but that's how it felt.
It was so bad, that I knew I could not cope a night like this, and only after a few minutes I was suffering real bad. I had to turn off the violence on TV, and as a nurse, I know a number of patients have a premonition before a heart attack strikes.
So I wondered if this was about to happen, although I never had any chest pain.
I wondered if it was a panic attack, but I wasn't hyperventilating and have never had one before.
All I knew was this was real bad, and I felt something really terrible was about to happen. I even looked out the window to see if the neighbours car was there, figuring is something was about to happen, I could collapse on their doorstep.
In desperation, and with nothing else to lose, I got on my knees and said 'Jesus, I don't know if it's just me, or if there really is something attacking me, but please, please help.'
Within moments it began to fade, and within several minutes I was back to normal.
In over 40yrs on this planet, I have never experienced anything like it, and never want to again.
As a result, I no longer watch TWD, or SonsofA. I realise I over did it, and do wonder if this was a natural reaction to hours of senseless violence, but I'm happier without such influences.
Any thoughts welcome.
Submitted February 21, 2017 at 10:54AM by Unknown
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