3 years ago I discovered a lump on my body and I was instantly terrified. I went to my doctor and he said it wasn't anything to be worried about. In the past month I went back to get it checked on and again he said not to worry about it, but I have the option to get it removed. No matter how many times he has said that it's not cancer, I am always worried about it though, not a day has gone by these past 3 years that I haven't thought what if that lump is going to be the thing that kills me?
Anyways, that got me thinking most people are afraid to die and don't accept the fact that one eventually one day they will experience their last day of their life.
I have just come to the realization that no matter what we do, we will never be able to avoid death no matter how far away it can seem. Heck, I could even die an hour from now or a month or maybe I still have a good 50 years left.
It intrigues me how so many human beings have died in the history of... well, everything! And yet no one can be for sure what really happens when we take that last breath. What will be waiting for us on the other side, that to me is the greatest mystery of life.
I'm scared of dying I will admit that, but what scares me even more is leaving my loved ones behind. Especially my mother.
I am Christian but I am not a very strong one, I have told people my doubts and they all say that it is normal to question my beliefs. I want to become closers to God but I find myself not going to church often or even thanking him for giving me my life. I worry that what if I haven't done enough to make it and I will be judged negatively based on what I have done in my life and how I have wasted it on pointless things.
My question is how do I prepare myself to die. I don't want to be one of those people who live their life selfishly and wait til' the last minute to come to God. I have just been thinking about it recently and I don't want to waste anymore time being doubtful and know that I will definitely have a place in Heaven.
Sorry for making this so long and telling random stories! I just wanted you to know what has been going on my thought process.
Thank you!
Submitted January 13, 2017 at 08:43PM by Unknown











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