Hey everyone. I'm really struggling today. I don't know if I just need to pray for wisdom or if anyone has suggestions for me.
My mom is very ill. We have a strained relationship that I have been praying over and working to improve for a long time. She has many mental illnesses and can be very dramatic and suicidal. I have phoned the police on her many times to have her taken to the hospital.
Yesterday she called me and told me her house had been burglarized, which is true. She began to go into a downward spiral and voiced suicidal thoughts. She also shared many things with me that were inappropriate and have left me feeling broken. She told me my dad beat her when she was pregnant. She told me that two separate hospitals have beaten her and broken her bones while she was a patient. I have worked at both of these hospitals as a psychiatric nurse and I sincerely believe she is delusional. She has a severe trauma history and I know she is unstable. She refuses to go to the hospital again because she is convinced they will beat her or give her the wrong medications. She tried to convince me to stop believing in God because she believes He is allowing all these horrible things to happen to her.
This happens with her a couple of times a year. I called her psychiatrist today and let his nurse know what happened so they can follow up with her.
So, I'm here now. I'm in need of prayer for wisdom- what is my part in this? What role does God need me to play? Every time this happens I feel more and more broken- I don't feel I can handle her anymore. A part of me wants to cut her out of my life but I don't think that would be right.
I am exhausted. If anyone has prayers or Scripture that could help me I would be so very appreciative.
Thank you friends.
Submitted January 12, 2017 at 11:57AM by Unknown
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