I've been on both sides of the fence regarding Christianity and atheism my whole life; sometimes staying on one side more than the other. I never really stayed on the Christian side for very long and eventually found myself "setting up camp", if you will, on the side of atheism.
After a lot of research online, reading books (Lee Strobel has become one of my favorite authors. Check out The Case For Faith if you haven't already) and just general self-reflection, I want Jesus to be a central part of my life. For my sake and my family's.
I quickly found that I don't have a problem with Christianity (Creation, Jesus, The Spirit) but my problem is with Christians themselves. I seemed to only witness their bad behaviors, i.e. cutting people off in traffic, parking across two spots, getting hammered drunk, tipping less than 20% -- even less than 5% at times -- and things of that nature. The Christians who go to church twice a year yet preach to others about how they should live their lives the other 362 days a year. "Christians" who are racist, sexist, misogynistic, etc. I got so sick of this self-righteousness and holier-than-thou attitude that I just swore off religion altogether.
But I realized I don't want religion per say, but a relationship with Jesus on a personal level so that I may have the strength/courage to change these perceptions and selfish, misleading behaviors of myself and those around me.
I made an appointment to meet up with one of the pastors (?) at a church near my home to talk about a lot of my issues and hopefully sort them all out.
I've "given my life" to Jesus maybe 3-4 but I always feel like I'm "doing it wrong". I'll say a little prayer or whatever, but I always leave Him before He can get close to me.
To wrap this up, what verses/chapters would you recommend to a person in my position?
Thanks in advance.
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Submitted March 23, 2016 at 01:57PM by Unknown
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