I used to be a Christian, then deconverted, and since then I've been here. I don't know what I am religiously at all. My mind jumps through a variety of different faiths, and as I continue to contemplate them, I question whether or not my thoughts are valid and whether or not I'd be delusional for believing in ____ religion.
I try to be Christian sometimes. I try to give up my sin, and let the holy spirit come to me. Then, I realize that I don't really believe in the resurrection, and have no idea if God exists, so I stop believing. I become irreligious for a bit. Then, I wonder, what if I'm wrong, and start to fear Hell...
Islam comes into the mix: I start to wonder if it's the "one true religion." Naturally, though, I think of all of the people put to death or killed in that religion's name, and I become repulsed. But, then, I start to fear Hell once again, and I wonder whether or not the extremists are right. Eventually, I stop thinking of it, but then I contemplate whether or not fundamentalist Christians could be right, and I freak out again.
I literally get stuck between theism and atheism. Then, when I think about certain religions, I get stuck between the various denominations and interpretations. What can I do to solve my problem? This has bothered me for literally years and it bogs down my entire life. Please, please, if you're reading this, help me.
Submitted March 24, 2016 at 03:59PM by Unknown
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