Hi everyone,
to introduce myself, I'm a young adult who has been struggling with homosexuality her whole life. I have always been a christian and wholeheartedly believe in the salvation that comes from following Jesus.
However, my relationship with God has always suffered because of my homosexual attraction to other women. It's hard to type this but I have always felt ashamed of my orientation, I know that God loves me as much as other sinners but being the way I am, I feel reluctant to spend time with God in prayer and in his presence.
I know that being myself is sinful and that I am an abomination to God but although I have not given into temptations physically, I have always struggled with mentally desiring others. Sometimes I feel very angry and sad at the Lord, because although we all have our burdens to bear and most struggle with issues of lust, at least people who are heterosexual can marry and have a sexual lifestyle that is holy in the eyes of the Lord.
I have prayed intermittently for some sort of breakthrough where the Lord can cure me of this but there have not been any results. Unfortunately, I have taken to not eating several days of the week, as I notice I do not struggle as much with sexual attraction when I am weak and tired.
I would love any advice from everyone else, and would also love to know if reparative therapy could be effective in my case as I have become quite desperate to cure this so I can begin rebuilding my relationship with Jesus, any thoughts are welcome.
Submitted January 08, 2016 at 12:36AM by Unknown
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