So basically I was raised as hardcore a witness as they come. I am just the last few years slowly fading out (it's very tricky to try and balance it with relatives etc since everyone important in my life is a witness). My realizations started as a teen when I would get in trouble for bullcrap. I am very strait laced. A good worker and all that. But always was made to not feel good enough and lesser than many around me. Now I have been married and moved away from my small hometown and my husband and I have begun breaking away. (He was raised the same but not as hardcore.) We are having trouble because we haven't quite been able to tell everyone we are done. We know as soon as we do we will be considered apostates a d people to stay away from. It comes from the scripture taking about a man without faith is worse than a person without faith... So here we are. Pretending we went to meeting most Sundays and Thurs... We don't have anything in common with our friends and family as they are not the ones who changed. We know we are. But there is no going back, I'm afraid. I fear that one day my dad or someone will run into someone from my congregation and hear that we have not been there for quite sometime. I think they may already know and havnt said anything yet while they decide what to do about it... Any day the wrong person is going to find out then my whole world will (not an if but a when) crumble and i will have no friends or family anymore. At least I am lucky enough to have my husband in the same thinking. But it feels like it's us against the world...
Submitted September 29, 2016 at 01:36PM by Unknown
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